holidays are almost over, hell months are almost here

3 more months of college.. i'm getting cold feet on whether or not i'm going to make it. It's stressful to think about how things will turn out in the months to come.. it can go both ways.. i'm taking some real crucial subjects right now and well, i can't help but be nervous about it. 6 long years of studying (studying??) will it finally come to an end this year? despite having a few close calls, i've never really failed any subject yet in my entire college life. i really hope that this last sem wont hold my first time.. ahk. enough talk. have to start working now.

yikes.. one week nalang!

one week and i'm back in manila.. cramming my brains out.. i feel the panic slowly seeping in.. there's 145, and 131 and of course.. how could i forget our thesis 199.. there's progress.. slow progress but progress still.. i hope this gets a move on.. i need a dark sky to work.. i can't seem to work in the daylight.. :( oops there's 196 pa pala! and p.i... and work..

panic.

[o] push button to destroy school

rainy day...

i think i've spent the whole day in front of my computer.. well, my day did start late at 10.30.. chatted with a few people then read some of our group mail.. there was this one entry posting a blog of some person.. okay, i guess who am i to judge right? it's his personal space.. but well, i guess i pitty his way of thinking.. he sounded much like a gradeschool kid trapped in a blog hehe ranting about so and so.. yes i rant.. but i think i more often than not think about what i rant about and make sure there's a bit of logic in there.. anyway, as much as i love toying with little kids, i left my reactions within our message group only.. i'm not one for bullying children.. :p

i never thought engg week wuold have this great an impact! i need to get back to acad mode! :(

life, or something like it..

i just got home from my friends house.. it's been a while since i last talked to them.. i got the latest scoop on the people from our batch.. some news happy and some news sad.. and now all of a sudden i realize that i'm 22 years old. i'm so old. i feel like my life just whizzed by me without my noticing it.. i'd love to be able to recall all the details of everything i've been through so i could take a second look at it and see what i missed back when i was young and stupid.. (as if daw o.. as if i'm not young hehe)

then again all my mistakes come to mind.. then i stop and think whether i could honestly say that i don't have any regrets.. to be honest there are a lot of things that i've done in the past that aren't really very nice.. but what's done is done.. and as cheezy as it may sound, i know i wouldn't be the person i am now if those things didn't happen to me.. so yeah, to some extent, i don't regret the things i did.

one thing i've learned, and i've always believed, is that it's always a good idea to tell the truth..

relaxing...

Slept the whole day yesterday.. as soon as I arrived home, after a bit of
roaming, playing the guitar and piano, I went for bed.. the net connection
was down yesterday so I didn’t get to go online. Thank god It's back today..
had to catch up on a lot of mail. I am currently enjoying a very relaxing
foot spa here at home.. ahh this is the life.. my feet has been sore since
the indakan.. it's good to finally get to relax! ;) zzzz...

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On the way home..

It's 5:27 am and my brother and I are on our way back home to Cagayan de
Oro. The last time I was home was last year but it seems like just a few
months back. Time flies so fast. I remember last year about being excited
about being a senior and now I'm finally here. I also remember betting last
summer that 2nd sem was going to fly in a blink of an eye. Now I'm
practically halfway through the sem! When we get back from Christmas break,
it's going to be over in no time. I just hope I get done all that needs to
be done, job applications, acads and most of all, thesis. Yikes.. all of a
sudden I've lost my appetitie to write :p I didn't sleep the whole night
cause we had to leave home at 2.30 and now I'm getting a bit sleepy, I think
I'll catch some Zs for a bit..

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Cant sleep.. been thinking about stuff.. so many things to do so little time.. I don’t know how to handle everything anymore..