whoa cool!

im blogging thru my fon! Hehe im just beside my pc though.. Im using a bluetooth connection t0 my deskt0p t0 acces the net.. Hehe this is fun, at least iv learned something today.. Ü now im hungry, was up all night doing projects.. Im.. Zzz..

*sigh*

Still no progress on the changing my life thing.. this is so sad.. I'm staying at the lab to supposedly have some things done but unfortunately i was able to do just a little of this and a little of that. this is sad.. really sad.. i don't know how i'm going to improve.. i just hope next sem i don't end up like this again.. :( i need change.. i need real change.

SUBMITTED!

talk about beating the deadline!! haha just submitted my machine project.. deadline is still later at 1:00 am so i guess i didn't do that bad :p i know, i'm still cramming. im still working on the improvements.. not only that, i've got my financial dilemmas to think about as well.. i just got home from a bible study and the message was strengthening your grip on money (or rather the not of that) it was a good message. it really did slap me in the head about the reality of how the love for money could control your life and distract you from the very important parts of life, like our faith.

i better try to improve myself, this time, whole-ly. I'll start today, by praying before i go to bed.

out of sync

still no progress i think.. it's been a lazy week for me.. i don't know if this change thing will actually work.. deep down inside i feel like the effort is futile since it's almost the end of the semester anyway... i know, pathetic.. *sigh*

i've got a new project, still studying it though. it's related to a course that i'm not taking and absolutely have no interest in. but it's gonna bring in some income so i have to try. I have an exam this afternoon though so i have to prioritize that first. and then we've got a deadline for the webteam next week! 4 sites i think.. :( this is sad.. i'll be stressed by the end of the sem. anyway.. better get back to studying..

ranting and hopes

I started on my machine project, that's an achievement, although it's not finished yet.. but it i got to say, it's just been one failure after another, yesterday, i didn't go to my first class again because i got lazy.. but congratulate me. my second class, which was a major subject, starts at 1. i left the house at 1:15 and the only things we do in class is have a quiz at the start of the class and just discuss (read the book aloud). our prof is a bit bookish.. wait, a bit i an understatement. anyway, i was debating on whether to go to class or skip it since i already probably missed the quiz. but then, i still went! and guess what the prof wasn't there yet! and by the time he arrived, we had too little time to have a quiz. :D so happy me. another failure, i skipped the class after that. i don't know, i just don't feel that i could learn something worthwhile from that class. it was just going to be a reporting on some language. call me bad but honestly, i really don't think i can learn anything.

today, i'm meeting someone regarding a project. here's my chance to get some money by doing something i love! :) i hope it turns out okay. anyway, i've still got so much to do.. we're the praise and worship team for this sunday so we have practice this evening..

Our praise and worship team is another issue for me since i'm the coordinator, i'm basically in charge. but it's so hard to implement things without everyone's cooperation and especially without unity. i'm still looking for a way to get everyone united. i think that's the only time we could really get things moving in the team. my term is almost over but there's still so much i want to do..

failure

I failed today. I was supposed to go to the rehearsal for "A star is born" a production for kids at church but I got lazy. It's just that the past few days of exams after another has really stressed me out. it's the first time in days that i'm able to sleep soundly. But lately, maybe cause i got used to sleeping late (that is if i get any sleep at all) i can't seem to sleep at night. take last night. by 9 i was in bed but i didn't doze off till 12 plus. i hope this doesn't stay this way.

anyway today, i'm downloading the specifications for our second machine project in cs 135. and instead of cramming like i usually do, i'm going to finish it if not today, this weekend. i hope i don't screw this one up.

My first day

The first day was ok.. I didn't get to do much though. It seems that all of a sudden, i've got nothing to do. But i'm sure things are going to get a lot busier next week. The projects with the webteam is piling up.. i hope we can all handle it. so much needs to be learned. what do i have planned for tomorrow? i'm helping out with a kids production for church. it's a musical to be shown on december. The kids are really working hard for it.. although sometimes they get a bit rowdy but they're fun to hang around with. it's fun watching kids enjoy themselves. they remind me of those days when i didn't have deadlines to meet. i guess although the job as their dance master / stage manager is a bit hectic, i guess i'm grateful too cause i get to break away from my usual routine of work and study. Tomorrow afternoon, i'm going to have a meeting with people from other churches connected to ours for a praise concert in october. hope that goes well.. thank goodness i've got friends who help out with the planning.. it's fun to get involved :) i hope everything goes well..

The start of a new blog.. and a new life

I'm changing my life starting today. I created this blog to track my progress. I've been postponing my better life for so many months now. I want it now. I think putting things in writing would help me change since if i write things down and post them, i'll be forced to live up to what i say. My first commitment, is to write in this blog everyday if possible. If i miss a day, it should be at most a one day interval only, unless in the cases of emergency like, city-wide black outs for days. I'll start simple.. i don't want to make promises i cant keep. :)